Everything happens for a reason. Everything. Even undating a guy for a week. The week that I supposedly was going out with Arturo made me feel like I was suffocating. I now know that I don't want to give up my freedom. I actually like being single. I like being able to not have to answer to anyone but myself. To quote one of my favorite books The Scandolous Summer of Sissy LeBlanc "...when you get to a certain age you realize that the only thing you have time for is doing exactly what you want". I'm getting a little worried though that each day that goes by I get more set in my ways. I don't know if I'll ever find someone because I don't feel that I should have to settle. I want a guy to be attracted to EVERYTHING about me, I don't want to have to change. I want a guy who I am hopelessly in love with. I want a guy who I don't feel the least bit self conscience around. I want romance. I want freedom. I want tingles and everything. I want someone who shares my beliefs. I want someone who I can talk to forever. I want someone I rush home to see each night. I want to feel that I can stop looking. And I want him to feel the same. Is that too much to ask?