I could not get Peter out of my head last night. I made the mistake of drinking one of those new Starbucks Double Expresso's and with all the other things on my mind (Peter) I wasn't able to fall asleep. Why can't I get him out of my head? I was imagining what it would be like to kiss him. It would be wonderful unlike with Jeremy. Then all of a sudden I was imagining our wedding, oh my goodness here I go again. I could picture it so well. The December wedding. My dress would be just like the one I'm wearing for Jeremy's big day but it would be white satin and the top would be trimmed with silver. My hair would be pulled back in an elegant bun at the nape of my neck. The bridesmaids (maid of honor Erin, jess, my sis's Carmen, Sarah Samantha and then his sis Cali) would be all dressed in midnight blue retroey forties style dresses and the forties style curled hair. Then their would be Reini and Desi as the bridesmaids with midnight blue dresses with silver sashes. Logan as the ring bearer in a little tuxedo. And of course it would be at night on a clear december night. Ugh! I cannot let myself DO THIS!