I am a no good, very bad person. Ten minutes before Luke was supposed to pick me up I called and cancelled on him. I told him I have a headache, which I do but it came out sounding like some cheesy lie. I really do have a monsterous headache but it is more than likely brought on by the stressing over the whole situation. I never really wanted to go but I have such a hard time saying no. Now I feel really bad on top of everything else.

I went to the Graduation party of Cali aka Peter my crushes sister. I felt so out of place. I ended up spending most of the time with Desi and Reini his four year old and two year old sisters in the sand box. I really wish I had the guts to just go over to him but I as hard as I try I still am very shy when I am just me. When I am at either of my jobs I can be miss outgoing but that seems to be because I am Katie the waitress or Katie the cashier not just Katie. Then once Alfie (one of the cooks at the restaurnt)came me and Peter got to talk in a less obvious way with him and one of my fellow waitress' Betsy. I had such a hard time being clever because of course I became all tongue tied. But he seemed kind of akward around me to. Like maybe good akward, like he liked me too. I did find out that he doesn't have a girlfriend thanks to Alfie's mention during the conversation. I also did notice Peter check out my chest. I was wearing my pink hippie shirt by FANG that has cute capped sleeves and a little front that ties to show a small peekaboo of clevage. Maybe it helped that I wore my amethyst bracelet from Miss-miami which is supposed to promote love. Now I keep thinking about him which is so bad. I keep telling myself that I can't let myself do this.