Why can't I just let things happen as they will? Instead I have to overananalyze and fast forward the relationship and completly forget the present. Like take for example Luke. Luke is my neighbor who lives behind our house.Our parents our friends. I've "known" him since I was thirteen. Known being defined as we said hello when we passed in the halls in highschool (he's a grade below me)and he says hi when he comes into where I work. I think our longest conversation consisted of four sentences. Anyways, two weeks ago, out of nowhere he asks me what I'm doing for the fourth of july. Nothing. So he asked me if I wanted to come to his bonfire. Strange, to me. I said I'd get back to him. So for the last couple of weeks I've debated about going or not going. See right away I want to know why he asked me. If he was just being "nice" why has he never done anything like this before. Does he LIKE me? He just broke up with his girlfriend of two years. Luke is decent looking, not my type though, tall, honey blonde with goatee and brown eyes. I've never really thought of him in that way. No pun intended but my feelings for him are merely lukewarm. He's nice. Grrr! See right away then I'm like if he likes me then I shouldn't go because then I may give him the wrong impression and things will just get weird. And the thing was I hadn't even called him back yet. So today, the day before the big night, I called. He wasn't home so he called me back tonight while I was working. I told him I'd call him tomorrow for final details. Then he stops into the gas station where I work to give me his cell phone number so I can call him easier. Couldn't he have just called me at work or home to give it to me? Isn't that strange. Grrrr, why can't I just let things fall where they will?