Que sera sera. I feel so lucky to work at the restaurant. Not only do I love working there, the money is very good and I work with great people. I'm learning things. The best person I am learning things through is Cali. Cali is a fellow waitress and Judi the owners boss. She's eighteen and my "twin". It's really funny because we get confused for each other on a regular basis even by her mom. We both have similar haircuts dyed auburn and wear glasses. We have the same builds (she has bigger boobs and a bigger butts) and she's an inch taller. But above all it's so nice to have someone who can sympathize with.We're both always single. She knows what it's like not to be a barbie doll. Just lately we've been talking a lot more. She told me about how Alfie had asked her why she wasn't on a diet. I could completly understand how she was feeling.

Wishing Heart

No teacher to follow, no prophet to tell me how,

But I know what I want, I know what I want now.

Like water, it rushes,

it's the last thing you see when you close your eyes,

it's the one place you want to be.

But if it doesn't brush my shoulder, and it doesn't beat my heart,

that's not what I want, that's not where I will start.

I never kissed somebody so that they would break my heart,

that's not what I want.

If you don't know what you're missing

cause you don't know where to start,

follow your wishing heart.

I was restless,

I was restless,

I was restless,

I was restless.

I just want this to be good,

I just want this to be good.

but you don't understand,

you don't understand me, and I want to be understood.

But if it doesn't brush my shoulder,

and it doesn't beat my heart,

that's not what I want - no, that's not where I will start.

I never kissed somebody so that they would break my heart,

that's not what I want.

If we all leap before we crawl, we might fall,

and it's not always candy spun from head to heart,

and it's not always meant to be,

and it's not always up to me.

But if it doesn't brush my shoulders, and it doesn't beat my heart.

that's not what I want, that's not where I will start.

I never kissed somebody so that they would break my heart,

that's not what I want.

If you don't know what you're missing,

cause you don't know where to start,

you don't know what you're missing

follow your wishing heart.