Monday, Sept. 09, 2002 @ 4:17 pm
I didn't feel anything. Jeremy and Amanda came into the restaurant today. And I didn't feel a thing. Not anger, not sadness, not lust. I have fully healed from that whole situation. Mind you it took a good six months (as of 8/28), but I am healed. Time does heal all wounds and as difficult as it feels it's all very necessary.
Well, it does help that Amanda looked like hell. No makeup, roots grown out and messily pulled into a bun and a shapeless tshirt and knit shorts. Marie told me that she was amazed at how well I handled the situation. But I told her that I was just like "Kasarasara, whatever will be, will be." Because it's the truth. I can't hold on to the past when I have all these things that will be better in my future. If not for our fling I doubt that I'd be as independant as I've become. It was another situation where I realized that I can't rely on a guy or a relationship to fulfill me. It's so much more than that.
before*little girl your in the middle* after
Katie(me)...curvy single 21 year old Wisconsin waitress who has the worst luck in men, believes in the positive effects of sexy underwear especially black,can't live without music, painted toenails, Curves(gym for women)and a good book(The Scandolous Summer of Sissy LeBlanc by Lorraine Despres)