HE KISSED ME! I am still currently in shock from a butterscotch tasting kiss that I recieved from Fernando today. It started as a kind of handshake in which he pulled me closer and kissed me on the cheek and then KISSED me. Full on tongue. Let's just say it was not the kind of kisses you see in the movies. Instead of being in rapture I'm sitting there in the middle of a mediocre kiss saying to myself, "Hmmm, what the hell is up with this." Okay, so this is what I wanted but I just don't know.

I suppose I should start with the begining. Both me and him worked until two and yes I admit I was kind of waiting around for him. Since it was last week when he picked me up that he told me I was beautiful. So I'm getting ready to leave when Alfie (another cook) motions me over. He tells me that Fernando wants me to meet him outside. So I'm all giddy because I totally thought that he didn't like me because he has hardly acknowledged my presense that day. So we get in the car and I don't really recall the conversation but he did ask me if I wanted a boyfriend and even if he didn't speak very good english. I said it was okay and he said that I could teach him. Then the car stops in my driveway and all of a sudden we're kissing. Who knows what the hell is going on. Now that I have what I crushed about I'm not certain it's what I really want. It was just supposed to be a crush. A CRUSH.