Friday, May. 17, 2002 @ 11:54 pm
Tonight me, my mom and my sister Carmen took out my sister Sarah for her birthday. Here sweet sixteen. I had a lot of fun with Sarah and my mom but Carmen no matter how I try I just can't handle being in her presence. Carmen, who I call Sacharine meaning that she is completly fake sweet. I don't know how to explain but Carmen is not even a real person. It is like I am watching an actress. Not even a good actress but one of those cheesy soap opera ones. There is nothing real about her. She adjusts to fit whomever she is with. Tonight she was all flirty with the guy waiting next to us. But it was this god awful act. And it's not just with the opposite sex. She puts on this cutie pie little voice and big smile about everything. It's nauseating just to watch her. She just wants everyone to love her. But who is she? I don't even know. I think that she has been playing this character that everyone adores that she doesn't even know who she is anymore. How can someone do that?
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