Saturday, May. 18, 2002 @ 12:28 pm
I don't feel that I can trust my heart or mind or both anymore. Why is it that I end up telling myself that things will be different this time, this guy really seems okay but it turns to crap anyways? I really did things would last with Jeremy. He was a good guy, we had a lot in common, we felt really comfortable around each other and there was a mutual attraction. So what the hell went wrong???? It's not even that I still really want to be in a relationship with him, because I can confidently say I'm over him. It's taken awhile but I am over him. It's not even that I still liked him after we broke up, I believe it was more a competition thing. I hate not suceeding at things.I like to know clear cut reasons and have clear cut solutions. But with this there is none. And I think my whole problem with Amanda is the fact that in my eyes she won. I don't know how good of a prize she has won. But she has won.
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