I've never had a hangover but I think I know what one feels like. I'm sure that I have a broken heart hangover. I woke up this morning with a throbbing headache and this all over nauseous feeling. Then I made the mistake of looking in the mirror. My eyes are huge and puffy not to mention bloodshot. Thank god I'm no longer trying to attract the opposite sex.

I also have this overwhelming empty feeling. I hate this feeling. At least I am better than last night. I searched through all my cd's in attempt to find a good sad one. I listened to my favorite song the ex-factor by Lauryn Hill which I had associated with this whole situation. I tried Dido but the stupid thing is scratched to hell, I couldn't find the Dixie Chicks so I settled for Alanis Morisette. I then proceeded to sob uncontrollably to the point that I was hypervenilating and choking into my pillow. I didn't realize how loud I was being but my mom came up to my room and just sat by me and held me for awhile to try to comfort me. She tried to convince me to go to sleep and everything would be better in the morning. But I tried to explain to her that each time my head hit the pillow my mind would start drowning in thoughts of him. All the good times and the things I loved about him. I just had this feeling that I had to do something go for a walk or throwup or something. I finally did fall asleep. But I was haunted by the fact that I would never again kiss him which is quite ironic considering the fact that I never did really enjoy kissing him. He wasn't that great of a kisser. Way to much tongue. I almost wish I could tell him that. I wish there were some things that I could tell him that would hurt him the way that he hurt me. I know that is so childish and wouldn't solve anything. I wonder what it will be like seeing him tomorrow. Will we pretend nothing happened or will silence be in the air? I'm thankful that I only see him long enough for him to take over for me tomorrow at work. Then I work two hours with him on Sunday, four on Tuesday and four on Thursday. Wish me luck. Any suggestions on how I should come across?