Once upon a time I believed in fairy tales. My favorite was Snow White. She overcame these great obstacles where she was unloved but overcame it because she was a good person and was rewarded for it with this perfect for her man who was her soulmate. And of course then came the happily ever after. I so badly crave that happily ever after but I seriously doubt that is going to happen to me anymore. Because that is reality. In reality marriages end badly. Marriages are for necessity. Marriages are for conveince. Marriages are for financial stability. Marriages are for show. Marriages are for the children. I believe perhaps that only 5% of marriages are for love or what is thought to be love. I really wanted to get married. Have someone that would love me forever and me them. Have the beautiful strapless, white satin dress and look breathless like every bride deserves to be. Have the cute little house is the suburbs. Have the husband that I kissed every morning before he left for work and once again when he returned home in the evening. Have the two beautiful daughters and handsome son to take to the park on a balmy summer evening and then tuck them beneath the crisp sheets of their bed. Have that perfect Christmas card where all five of us are smiling in front of our tree. I wanted all that and more but now it feels so far from reach. Why can't I have a happily ever after?