Do you ever feel like you can jinx things by getting too comfortable? Yup, been there done that. He cancelled on me tonight (migraine headache). Shouldn't be a big deal but it is. I'm catching myself singing along to Fiona Apple which is broken heart music. I am doomed. Doomed to be single. Why did I ever think that I could break my curse? Why do I even want to risk it. All I end up with is a broken heart. I went through my whole written relationship with JEREMY #1 (the engaged one) and I feel like I'm falling into the same exact pattern. I want to call him and just say "Hey, buddy. If you're just going to break my heart do it right here right now. Pull it off just like a bandaid. End it now. Let me butch my hair, cry, sing along with girly broken heart rock and swear off men for REAL this time." Why the hell do people want to fall in love?