Monday, Aug. 05, 2002 @ 11:17 pm
I did not realize that friendship had to be such a pain in the ass. I'm about ready to write off interaction with fellow females and become a recluse. Toni today came to my house. This is the second time Toni has been to my house in the three years that I've known her. She came to yell at me for talking about her behind her back. I had told a customer that Toni always has a guy and it got back to her. Oh, my god what was I thinking I am such a bitch. Hey wait a minute all I was doing was stating a fact. Toni does always have a guy. She bitched me out because I was insinuating that she was loose. I actually was only insinuating that she ALWAYS has a boyfriend. It really upset me. She then goes on to tell me that she's upset with me because I never want to do anything with her and I always do stuff with Miriah(our fellow coworker who she considers "bad"). Actually I never want to do anything with her because whatever she wants to do involves the bar scene. I HATE the bar scene. Plus I don't have a lot of free time. I work 65 hrs and Toni works 20. When I do have free time it's VERY valuable.I've done things with Miriah a few times because I have fun with Miriah and we don't do the bar scene. I don't feel suffocated around her the way I do with Toni. Being around Toni is frustrating. Not only is she gorgeous with one of those sexy low voices BUT she's a total flirt. I might as well sit in some corner by myself. Grrr! Why do I have to feel obligated to be her friend? I don't need all this drama. I'm actually quite okay with not having a million and one friends. I'll just become a recluse or an old spinster with no friends. Now that's a plan.
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