I have come to the realization that this WHOLE situation would be a lot easier if Jeremy were some kind of asshole. But he is really far from it.I wish my reasoning for breaking up with him were that he cheated or that he were abusive or he were planning to move to Brussels. In each of those situationd the answer would be clear cut. I must break up with him because__________. But in this situation I am seriously contemplating breaking up with him because things have changed???? Does that even make sense? Is it in the rule book that you can end a relationship that hasn't even hit the three week mark? It's so hard because since there are no real hard fast reasons that we should break up than maybe we shouldn't. Maybe I should just play those games women play, play evasive myself and pretend I have this fabulous life in which, so what if he calls. But that isn't my life. I so badly want him to call. I am in this relationship because I didn't want to play those games. We don't. Maybe that's what makes it the hardest of all. I know I have to end it because I already am so attatched to him and it's getting worse each day. I can distinguish the smell of Marlboros on a person because those are the kind that he smokes and everytime I smell leather I turn around. He literally is everywhere. I'll hear something or see something and I'll realize how much I miss him. I really think it is best for me to toss in my cards and count my losses. I have given him his space. I have not called him since Thursday and we only worked for four hours on Saturday which I could not help. I'm crossing my fingers that perhaps he'll have missed me too. But I probably not that lucky.