Friday, Oct. 10, 2003 @ 11:09 pm
I'm NEVERhaving sex again. Never. I got the biggest scare of my life on Wenesday night. After being gone all day I go home to check my messages. One of which is from Bio-Health (a place where they pay for plasma donations, I tries it two weeks ago, almost passed out so didn't return) saying that it was urgent that I call back immediatly. So I get a little sick knowing that they test for STD's. But my stomach didn't drop to my ankles until later that night I remember to look in my mailbox to find an official looking envelope that boldly has CONFIDENTIAL stamped on it, and it's from the Department of Health. I tear it open to find a letter stating that I must call them immediatly regarding an urgent health matter. This is followed by three numbers. So I called the cell phone number listed knowing that no one will answer but I was going out of my mind with worry. I hung up and tried to get to sleep. But of course I couldn't. My mind was racing about my past partners (less than a handful) and was it really worth it? Nope. I thought to myself I could die or never be able to have children because of fifteen minutes of mediocre pleasure. Then I started to think what I would do if I found out I was dying what I would do. How would I contact the guys since I never end on good terms? Had Nick given it to me? Would I become more daring or more the old lady I am? Would I tell anyone? I didn't sleep at all. In the morning I woke up at 6 and called Bio-Health. They told me they couldn't tell me anything over the phone. I had to come in. But I had Logan. I was very tempted to take him fast asleep to the clinic that moment but I decided instead to attempt to go back to sleep. At eight the department of health called me. She told me that I might have syphillis. BUT she told me that because the tests at BIO-Health are super sensitive, 99 times out of 100, it's a false positive. Whew! But I get to go to planned parenthood on Monday to be 100% sure but it's something that is easily treated with antibiotics. But this sure has remade me think about sex, it's completly not worth it.
*little girl your in the middle*